From Lessons to Love Letters

Before my self-discovery or some would call it my recovery..... I didn't know that you could reenact the relationships you had as a child. I went on searching, loving and giving but never truly; 

"Existing or Being"


I  never learned how to do it... I never got lessons on being. I learned how to be so many things, but I never sat and mastered the art of existing. However, at 26 I think I have a better understanding of it.  With practice, I learned that if I want to see myself in truth-- I should take a glimpse at the people I love and how I love them.

So my self-discovery lead me to--- loving correctly. 

My love sounds a little like this. 

Dear You,

Thank you for giving to me from the holes in your heart. Thank you for loving me "the only way you knew how" because now I get the chance to love you fully.  At first, I felt ripped off because all love to me was attached to extreme levels of pain and trauma but with some understanding and insight-- I know why that it is. I understand all the roles you had to play to get me to be where I am today. 

I love you for being my mother and my father all at once. 

I love you for being my stepfather and my father all at once.

I love you for being my grandparents and my parents all at once.

I love you for being my uncle and my brother all at once. 

I love you for being my brothers and my children all at once

I love you for being my best friend and my sister all at once.

I love you for being my boyfriend, lover, best friend, brother, dad, and grandfather all at once. 

I love you for being all the things-- I needed you to be and still being human. 

I love you for teaching me that love is imperfect.

SIMPLY FOR BEING


When I found out about healthy love---I was frightened at the ways I loved and how I let myself be loved. However, with gratitude and thanks, I understand myself, and I know the parts of me that are of you.  With all your love I have discovered myself.

I have reached my healing.... and now I can love me in all the ways I felt were missing. I can, more importantly, give you love from my highest self willingly. With authentic love, we can all reach true intimacy. 

You exist so I love your being. 

From lessons to love letters-- thank you for loving me with all your being. 

I now can stop this war and be at peace with the love you all give me. 

Asj Gee